Presenting this unique scenario (What I mean by revolution)

The reason I will be writing this is not to draw attention or to prove myself, but to propose a new idea, a new perception, something that was totally unexpected from me, Anto. I am just an ordinary figure, what is important is what I have done, and what I'm currently doing, and what I will do in the future, I, the person, am not the attention, this new character plateau however, is. it is just to show a whole new wave of thought, one that is possible. It could be an example to others, an inspiration (whatever), or just an interesting read.

Many people have asked me "how I'm doing" and I reply "I'm revolutionizing", others would just look at my msn nickname and be like WTF is he saying ?

For months I've been keeping everything on hold, and in some sense, 'isolating' myself, to initiate a whole new character plan, a revolution, to change everything in my life - from actions, to reactions, to emotions, to physical appearance, to perceptions, to perspectives, to all things that make the human what he is.

This means, I would live under instability for a while - for example, I would act differently with people today, then I would have a month ago, it's just to try out and test different characters, to discover myself, in order to change from my previous state, to a completely new one - so this is an internal revolution - What does a revolution mean ? Here are some definitions:

-a drastic and far-reaching change in ways of thinking and behaving; "the industrial revolution was also a cultural revolution"
-A revolution is a relatively sudden and absolutely drastic change. This may be a change in the social or political institutions over a relatively short period of time, or a major change in its culture or economy.
-Rapid and extensive culture change generated from within a society.

The primary, root objective of revolution is change. Revolutions, however, do not apply only to society and politics, they can also apply to the individual. Imagine you are living in a country where the masses are unhappy with the political status quo, but are weakened by fear and dominance because of a potent and powerful political regime, preferably a dictatorship, eventually, over a long period of time, what will happen ? No doubt, the masses will rise and create a revolution. A living breathing example of this was the Cedar Revolution in my own country, Lebanon, in 2005.

Lets apply this political/social situation to the individual. When a person has, for a very long time, been unhappy with himself, eventually there will reach a point where the person cannot take it anymore, some people break down, others commit suicide, others become hopeless - but, only the willful and powerful would have the might and tendency to change. It is one of the hardest goals in life, change. When we look at a revolution, things don't 'automatically' become perfect and stable, often, in the first steps of a revolution, there is unemployment, political instability, riots, an uncomfortable social situation, and whatnot. So, in the beginning, everything goes down. So there has to be sacrifices made and a strong determination and will, to strive for a better future. After a while, maybe months and years, things slowly start looking brighter.

In my case, this revolution was necessary, there was no choice for me but to go through it, and because I have a solid philosophical and psychological background, it was only commonplace to 'create' something a little out of the ordinary, and that is, placing certain 'degrees' and 'steps' to how much I've changed and how much more I can change, which are represented by a percentage. (i.e. my revolution has reached 5%). In this case, when I place a percentage, it means I have placed limits, because I am implying a value. But, how can I 'limit' how much I change ? Who can predict a 'limitation' to a revolution ? The answer is a very complicated one, because this revolution is only one part of change, I have placed values because I have planned it, the revolution itself consists of many steps I have to accomplish, some very easy, others extremely difficult. The steps are the revolution itself, but the external third-party outcomes are outside the framework of the revolution. So, the revolution is planned, but the 'side-effects' are not - and most probably, the side-effects will be extreme too, there is no drama involved in this.

The equation I have created is C = K pC lim=conscience. This means Change is directly proportional to the potential to Change. The only limitation to this is the conscience, the mental state, the desire to 'stop' or slow change. I have given much thought to this, do not forget, awkwardness only lies in your misconceptions.

But it has started, I am optimistic, I will be waiting and I just need a bit more time. This is not only to prove to myself, but it is also to prove to others. Is this normal coming from me ? No, it's not, it's completely new to me too. I am open to criticism and mockery, change usually has an unfavorable light to how others perceive it, but nevertheless I will continue, and pass all obstacles to reach my goals. Whatever it takes, I am confident I will reach my goals, this is just the beginning.